Jump, breathe, jump

I decided I needed to reclaim my life. I decided I needed to take control of things. As I have always believed that a strong body leads to a strong mind I set out to relieve my body of it’s weakness and hoped my mind would follow suit. So I went to a gym, CrossFit […]

Supposed to be sleeping…

Ermagerd! Erm gertting brain surgery terrmorrow!!! I’m not supposed to be awake, thinking, feeling, typing. I should be sleeping, preparing for what some have termed “my big day” in the am, but I’m not. As soon as my head hit the pillow I was wide awake. First I sat here in awe of all the […]

“The only way of knowing a person is to love them without hope.”

I was working on a paper last night and I found that quote as I pored through the works of Walter Benjamin, trying to understand memory, love, images, hope. I still don’t understand but I found this quote very powerful. You see this weekend I found myself crumbling under the weight of the unconditional love […]

Smell Ya Later, Herbert!

The toilets in my house are really clean. Like seriously clean. Eat off me, rest your cheek on my seat clean. Disinfected, gloriously shiny and smelling like the janitor just came through clean. Why? because I cleaned them. Because it was mindless. Because it didn’t involve facing anything. I can’t face it. I can’t face […]